/THE MELODY AND THE NOISE/

...that I have something to say.

And it may not be important.

But it needs to be said for me...



I love to write. I honestly do. And as life has been found to move at a much faster pace in the real world, i.e. after college with a real job and a fiancée, I'm finding that the simpler things seem to have all but disappeared.

Everything that I do lately seems to fit into two categories.

Either I'm doing something to check off my to-do list or a to-do list built for me by someone else.

Or, I'm doing absolutely nothing beneficial at all in hopes of recharging my batteries to tackle the next round of things-to-get-done that is surely on its way soon.

And by nothing I mean legitimately nothing. Vegging out in front of the TV or mindlessly roaming the internet. Things that I've come to believe are not healthy at all.

However, there are healthy ways to "recharge", and one of those ways for me is to write. Writing music. Writing blog posts. Writing notes to my bride-to-be. Writing anything.

It's healthy. It's beneficial. It's relaxing.

And yet when I'm done I feel like I've accomplished something.

I'm sure I could delve deeper into it all than this, but honestly this is what I wanna take away from coming to this realization.

In my life I want to do the things that both leave me recharged and refreshed yet leave me feeling like I've accomplished something as well.

So I write...

What is it for you? What is it that you do that leaves you with a sense of accomplishment while giving you peace?

there's no greater feeling
than the rush of Your love
no sunrise or sunset has ever been so amazing
without knowing the Hands that drew it up
You hold me there in Your Hands; in Your Heart
and I wanna give You every piece of me but some days i don't know where to start
You're everywhere; my Everything
and all i want to be
is to be perfect for You
but if i was
there would be no need for You for me

and i need You for me
more than anything
and i pray; i pray so hard
that You continue to love me like i know You do
because i can't get it right
and that's why i'm me
because first
You were You

So... I love my Tanglewood Heritage...

I've been playing it for years... It's gotten me where I am now, and I'm absolutely still in love with its sound...

But...

Some have mentioned that it may be time for an upgrade, and at long last I heeded the advice...

And the story behind my new guitar is pretty sweet...

6 months back I went into Guitar Center and played the exact guitar I bought today...

I went back every few weeks for a couple of months to play it, but at the time it was well out of my price range...

But, Guitar Center is right near the office of my vocal coach so it didn't hurt to play anyways...

After a couple months or so, I traipse in only to discover it's been sold... Needless to say, it was a sad day for me, but I knew I couldn't have afforded it, and ho hum, I went on living life...

Well, today I made the realization that I've saved up a good bit of money, and that a new acoustic is all that this musician feels he needs to "complete" where he wants to be right now...

(Notice the word 'complete' in quotations and the phrase "right now"... I am under no illusion that my "completion" may only last a week, but for now and for the benefit of my checking account let's hope this is the case...)

So, I went searching for this same guitar I wanted 6 months back on Guitar Center Online hoping that they may have one in another store around the country and maybe I could have it shipped to me, and lo and behold I find it in the store in the same store only now it's $1100 cheaper than it was b/c it's been "on the shelf" for 6 months...

I call them, and they have it...

Guy says it's been in the back for a while now b/c it was suppose to ship but didn't for some reason...

He pulls it out for me. I show up. I play it for like an hour in the store trying to decide if this is the one...

Knowing all the while...

This is the one.

So I buy it.
Breedlove Performance Series Focus Maple

(Somewhere angels are singing...)

I realize that a full maple body has its strong and weak points in sound, but I think with the right equalization I could really make this the sweetest sounding guitar I've ever put through a sound system...

This Sunday will tell the tale, but until then here are some pics... Hope you enjoy... It's pretty even if you know nothing about guitars...

So, lately I've been on this bend of writing worship songs so that the band and I can make a sweet record and go places... which may or may not happen...

That's in God's hands... (both the record and going places...)

But I re-got the urge from my older days to write something a little more bluesy/jazzy/lots of 7ths tonight and out came these words...

I've been listening to Zach Williams album, 'Story Time' a ton lately...

Never heard of the guy before? No worries... Neither had I 'til he sang at Catalyst the other day and totally rocked a song he had written and then sang his version of 'Come Thou Fount'...

His voice is haunting and SOLID...

And the feel of his record is nothing like contemporary Christian stuff or P/W, which is absolutely a blessed relief for me b/c I feel like ever since I've taken a job as a FTWL (full-time worship leader) (and, yes, I just made that acronym up) I've listened to nothing but P/W (praise and worship) and I just needed a really good awesomely crafted genuine musical break...

He brought it. And then some...

So, I thought to myself...

"I bet writing something a little out of the P/W genre for one night certainly can't hurt ya."

And I was right...

It's amazing how quickly it all comes back...

Enough about the journey... Here are the lyrics... Written quickly and with much honesty to some bluesy chords... Make up the melody in your head for now...

And I hate being alone
Feels like sadness is hanging from the walls
But with no picture frames to hang it on
There's nothing but holes
Sitting with the TV on
In a house that ain't never felt like home
The volume's at a conversational tone
And all my best friends are on / still alone

So I give in to You
And I got faith in what You called me to
I just gotta see it through
Here's me happy singing the blues
And you know I won't question You
I just gotta see it through

I know this don't make much sense
I'd rather make dollars instead
And none of it compares
To the joy in you / it's true
I just wanna live this life
Of sometimes pain and strife
And look back and know that the I in I
Wasn't me, it was You / it's true

So I give in to You
And I got faith in what You called me to
I just gotta see it through
Here's me happy singing the blues
And you know I won't question You
I just gotta see it through



Insert wicked awesome guitar solo and some sax or something and jam until the sun comes up...

That's it... Enjoy.

Leave feedback... The blog misses you. And me.

Let's do this more often... Deal.

I'm failing at consistently writing a blog...

I've been unbelievably busy the past few weeks, and while I don't consider this to be an acceptable excuse, someone's gotta take the blame, right?

So, the long and short of it... I'm still working at Roswell Street Baptist Church in Marietta...

It's been great so far, but I'm certainly having a hard time locking into their vision for the position they've hired me for...

I certainly see the role I'm filling, but in the end where does this role lead me personally, and more importantly, where will it take this church...

God has so got a plan for me, but, wow, if sometimes things don't come together like you expect them to...

I'm sitting outside Marietta Pizza Company right now. I had some slices. Listened to Andy Stanley's leadership podcast. Did a little work. Wrote another blog...

Now I'm writhing this...

Andy teaches so well and so much in one little 30 minute conversation. It's ridiculous...

But what throws me the most is this...

The more I learn about how to do these things and do them well, the more confused I become about what this life and my life is all about...

I know what I'm suppose to be doing... "Making disciples." But I don't know in what way to go about doing that that will most glorify the Kingdom...

I listened to Andy's podcast called, "High Performance Teams".

I want to implement and be a part of these types of teams...

But...




Where?




How?




When? Now?



Here are my notes from the podcast. Staying steadfast in prayer... My love for the Cross and my Creator has lessened none and grown so much more. Have no fear. I will succeed and not for my glory... Much love to all of you that take the time to wonder and wander here...

High Performance Teams

- If you don't like talking things out through meetings, then you're probably not a good team leader...

Here's how we create high performance teams...

A. - A clearly defined problem... "What's going to happen if we don't solve this?"
This is not a goal. A goal is an add-to. Fixing a problem means something good won't happen.
- One of the major problems God is calling us to solve is irrelevant church environments.
What does this do?
1. This gives a team a reason to be.
2. This gives a context for passion.
3. Teams dissolve when the problems are
all solved.

B. An agreed upon solution is key and that takes time.
1. Agreement necessitates unfiltered debate.
2. I can't concede my point until I know you have heard me out.
"Only when everyone has put their opinions and perspectives on the table can the team confidently commit to the decision." We want our staff to agree to commit to a decision not just agree to do a task.
3. Every team member must buy in before they will whole-heartedly pitch-in. "People will commit their hearts to a cause but not to a task."
- If you want their hearts involved then you have allow them to be involved to the solution.

So... What is the problem? What is the solution?

C. Clearly assigned roles.
1. Every team member needs to know exactly what's expected of them.

You hire employees. You create a team.
Employees greatest concern is usually not the problems at work. They show for a paycheck. Teams show up to accomplish something.

Do we continue to tell people what to do, how to do, and when to do by, or do we cast the vision to to fix the problem with an agreed upon solution?

I've been totally and completely enthralled of late with the television show, "Kings". It follows the main character David, a young man from a farming community that has slain a "giant", as he rises through the ranks of his war-torn country...

Sound familiar?

The show is strongly based on the story of David from I Samuel. It sets the stage in modern times, and for the most part sticks to the general outline of the story adding things here and there for dramatic effect and overall continuity, but in general, the story of his rise remains...

David is my favorite biblical character. Hands down. No doubt about it...

I love the story of David...

Not because he becomes king or slays giants or tends sheep...

But because He is a man after God's own heart...





And he screws up royally time and again...




It's unbelievably reassuring to me, this grace that God shows to David. God has a plan for his life, and in spite of the fact that David's shortcomings often stray him from the path, God still accomplished what He intended to...

On the episode I watched tonight, the character "David" tells the king that he often doesn't know how God works, but that after the act of grace the king shows, David believes that God works through the king.

A couple episodes back "Reverend Samuels" informs the king that he has lost favor with God, and that God is no longer with him.

So I wonder to myself...

After the words that David said tonight...

Is this just human error in the script? Someone, somewhere forgot that the king is out of God's favor, and they wrote in this scene that strongly suggests that he is? This easily could be the case...

It's a T.V. show. It doesn't have to be absolutely perfect in its plot lines all the time.

Or for that matter, the character "David" can think that the king is in God's favor even if he's not. There's nothing wrong with that as far as the plot is concerned either...

But what if...

Whether the writers meant it this way or not...

What if there's something more to what "David" said...

Something deeper?




Maybe I'm the only one that will see this, but who I am to discount the idea that God can show me something through a T.V. drama that may or may not make it through its first season...

(By the way, it has a strong possibility of getting canceled so if you like the sound of things so far take a chance and watch it. Go to hulu.com and search "Kings".)

I truly think that God lives and moves through our lives in any way He so desires, and He can speak through any medium he chooses...

Tonight, I think He chose to show me something through this show...

And I'm listening...

And this is what concerns me...







Too often we place ourselves in positions to take on the world...

There's nothing wrong with this, but the motive can be...

Sometimes it's about fame and popularity and fortune...

And now it seems these things can be attained even through Christian culture...

Contemporary Christian Music offers fame and fortune. Leading a mega-church offers fame and fortune. Writing the next huge Christian movement book offers fame and fortune.

We want to be Andy Stanley and Chris Tomlin and Steve Fee and Rob Bell and Craig Groeschel and Erwin McManus and Hillsong United...

And hear me now... I'm not discounting any of those guys...

They all have amazing ministries...

Technically Andy Stanley is my lead pastor. You better know I support his ministry! :)

It's not those guys that I'm concerned with...

It's us guys trying to be those guys that worries me...

Those guys have been blessed by God and given the opportunity to touch thousands of lives for the good of the Kingdom, and as far as I know they've done so with all morals and humility and faith intact...

And it's possible that I could one day do the same...

It's possible that I could touch thousands of lives for the cause of Christ one day with all my morals and humility and faith intact...

But here's the big question...

Would I... Would you...

Sacrifice those morals or that humility or that faith to become famous and popular even if you look liked you were serving the Christian community?

Because I don't think serving the Christian community is the same as living a life pleasing to God...

Would we give away some of the things we value most for things that really mean nothing?

Because here's the scary part...

"David" believes that God is working through a man that has lost God's favor...




And God is.




God is doing just that. God is working through a man who no longer has His favor, and why?

Because God's purpose and plan is above our plans and our purposes, and He will work through me whether I choose His path for my life or my own...

Because He is God, and His will will be done...

So will I be content if His purpose for my life consists of little fame and no fortune?

Or will I strive for those things in spite of what He really desires for me?

Or does He truly desire those things for my life, and He waits for me to take those steps humbly?

I can't tell you at this point. All I know is where He has me now, and what I'm doing tomorrow...

But I know that if I learn nothing else tonight, it's not to confuse God working through me with my being in His will...

He will make use of me and my life for His kingdom wherever I am; whatever I choose to do...

It's up to me to continue to pursue Him and His will for my life daily. Only then can I be secure in the belief that I am where I should be and on the path He's called me to...

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I Samuel

^11-12
Samuel said, "What on earth are you doing?"

Saul answered, "When I saw I was losing my army from under me, and that you hadn't come when you said you would, and that the Philistines were poised at Micmash, I said, 'The Philistines are about to come down on me in Gilgal, and I haven't yet come before God asking for his help.' So I took things into my own hands, and sacrificed the burnt offering."

^13-14
"That was a fool thing to do," Samuel said to Saul. "If you had kept the appointment that your God commanded, by now God would have set a firm and lasting foundation under your kingly rule over Israel. As it is, your kingly rule is already falling to pieces. God is out looking for your replacement right now. This time he'll do the choosing. When he finds him, he'll appoint him leader of his people. And all because you didn't keep your appointment with God!"

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I pray that I keep my appointment with God. That I continue to pursue His will for my life, and that no matter where I end up, I get there because it's where He intended me to be there...

I want to be used...

But I want to be used in the best way possible...

Fame and fortune are of no equal to His will...

And I pray that I steadfastly continue to believe this...

I do think that I could one day reach thousands or millions for Him...

But I also know that attempting to do so outside of His will for my life is failure...

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Romans

³ For I say, through the grace given to me, to everyone who is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think, but to think soberly, as God has dealt to each one a measure of faith. ⁴ For as we have many members in one body, but all the members do not have the same function, ⁵ so we, being many, are one body in Christ, and individually members of one another. ⁶ Having then gifts differing according to the grace that is given to us, let us use them: if prophecy, let us prophesy in proportion to our faith; ⁷ or ministry, let us use it in our ministering; he who teaches, in teaching; ⁸ he who exhorts, in exhortation; he who gives, with liberality; he who leads, with diligence; he who shows mercy, with cheerfulness.
⁹ Let love be without hypocrisy. Abhor what is evil. Cling to what is good. ¹⁰ Be kindly affectionate to one another with brotherly love, in honor giving preference to one another; ¹¹ not lagging in diligence, fervent in spirit, serving the Lord; ¹² rejoicing in hope, patient in tribulation, continuing steadfastly in prayer; ¹³ distributing to the needs of the saints, given to hospitality. ¹⁴ Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. ¹⁵ Rejoice with those who rejoice, and weep with those who weep. ¹⁶ Be of the same mind toward one another. Do not set your mind on high things, but associate with the humble. Do not be wise in your own opinion. ¹⁷ Repay no one evil for evil. Have regard for good things in the sight of all men. ¹⁸ If it is possible, as much as depends on you, live peaceably with all men. ¹⁹ Beloved, do not avenge yourselves, but rather give place to wrath; for it is written, “Vengeance is Mine, I will repay,”^a]">[a] says the Lord. ²⁰ Therefore, “ If your enemy is hungry, feed him; If he is thirsty, give him a drink; For in so doing you will heap coals of fire on his head.”^b]">[b] ²¹ Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

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More to come on this... I assure you.

So I haven't written in far too long. My deepest apologies. It's just been a hectic few weeks getting readjusted to life back in my childhood home. Figuring out where I fit in, and what to do, and how to live. Not to mention I've taken a couple of days and exited back to Athens or Atlanta so getting settled in has been kind of impossible...

And with recent developments...

Getting settled...

Is again...

On hold.






I don't know if you know this, but I thought I would share with you if you don't...

Towards the end of this year I will go on staff with Longleaf Church, a partner of North Point Community Church in Alpharetta, GA. We will start services in January and do preview services October-December. One of the best opportunities of my life. I'm so blessed to have the chance to work with such a great organization, especially as my "first" job. I honestly can't wait!

But... I do have to wait...

Seeing as we're not launching until January, I'm gonna have to find some work in the meantime. I'll do as much as I can with Longleaf until launch, but between now and then I've got mouths to feed! (Mostly just mine.)

So what to do in the interim?

Well, here's the answer...

Ready for the updates? I don't know if you are... To be honest I don't know if I am...







The rundown.

May 09 - I graduated.

May 16 - I moved from Athens, GA back to Byron, GA. Peach County. Land of my youth. Back in with my parents. Great people. But forever and always my parents... (For the record, it hasn't been so bad so far...)

May 18-22 - I stayed in Savannah for a week with that hot girlfriend I've got and her fam. They're good people too.



Through the next week. I led some worship and went to the Hillsong United concert and for the most part started to settle into life back in Middle Georgia. It actually was going pretty well, but the biggest need for me was the need for a job. So I started to look. Stuck some applications out there. Hoped for the best. Living the dream...



June 03 - That hot girl I like so much left for Ireland. I didn't cry, but if I had known how bad this was gonna suck I might have. Skype is awesome, but it doesn't quite do justice to an actual living, breathing person right in front of you. Ho hum, I'll survive. Moving on...

June 03-07 - Traveled around the greater metro-Atlanta area and into Athens for a few days organizing my life and truly exiting out of Athens completely.




At this point the interim job search has started to clarify itself...

Came home after that trip, and I've been in Byron, yet again, attempting to settle and find some work. Had a couple of conversations, but I didn't know what to make of it all just yet.

And then...

It all seemed to click...

Imagine shaking up a box with a puzzle in it, opening it, letting the pieces fall to the floor in all the right places...



Okay... Maybe not that dramatic... Or awesome...


But close.




Alas, finally to the point of all this...

Through the course of those few weeks I made contact with a lot of people and churches where I could best use my gifts in the mean time...

It worked...

The band and I are booked to lead worship through the rest of this month as well as August through December...

(We still have dates open in July though, as well as, a few August through December. Contact me!)

(What a shameless plug that was!)

(Well, I mean it is my blog. And my band. I am so allowed to do that!)

Back on track...

I've also gotten some interest in my graphic design work from a lot of folks, and I've been contracted out to do design for 2-3 churches and companies...

So that's awesome... Playing music and designing graphic stuff... Solid money in general, but neither of those things are permanent or guaranteed. I could go 3 weeks with tons to do and then 4 with nothing... Hmmm...

I need and like some permanancy...

And Roswell Street Baptist Church has been so gracious in obliging me with that!

When they heard that I wouldn't be hired until later this year with Longleaf they asked if I wouldn't mind joining them in their journey for a little while...

And of course I wouldn't mind doing that!

And so...

(Drum roll now. Finally.)

THE BIG NEWS!!!




This Saturday I will be making the move to Marietta, Georgia to live for the rest of the summer and possibly into the fall a bit. I'll be working with Roswell Street Baptist as an intern basically doing what I'll be doing with Longleaf. Organzing some systems, working on production, graphic design, and living the dream as an intern, which basically means a lot of grunt work too. It's good for me!!! We can't all do the glamorous stuff all the time... Not unless I get really, really famous one day....

It is a huge blessing. They'll be housing me for free which is a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders, and I'll get to work in an environment that will be hugely beneficial to my growth and development.

Could it be any more perfect?

Doubtful...



And that my friends is why faith will cast out all fear...

He will provide. Fear not...


"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28


Believe me when I say that I had my doubts, but I know that He has a purpose for me... For us all.

He will come through...


Two songs that have been blowing me up lately... So pertinent...

Of course they're Hillsong... :)

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You'll Come

Verse 1
I have decided I have resolved
To wait upon you Lord
My rock and redeemer shall not be moved
I?ll wait upon you Lord

Pre Chorus
As surely as the sun will rise
You'll come to us
As certain as the dawn appears

Chorus
You'll come let your glory fall
As you respond to us
Spirit reign flood our hearts
With holy fire again

Verse 2
We are not shaken we are not moved
We wait upon you Lord
Our Mighty deliverer my triumph and truth
I'll wait upon you Lord

Bridge
Chains be broken
Lives be healed
Eyes be opened
Christ is revealed

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With Everything

VERSE 1:
Open our eyes
To see the things that make Your heart cry
To be the church that You would desire
Your light to be seen

VERSE 2:
Break down our pride
And all the walls we’ve built up inside
Our earthly crowns and all our desires
We lay at Your feet

PRE CHORUS:
Let hope rise
And darkness tremble
In Your holy light
That every eye will see
Jesus our God
Great and mighty to be praised

VERSE 3:
God of all days
Glorious in all of Your ways
Oh the majesty the wonder and grace
In the light of Your Name

CHORUS:
With everything
With everything
We will shout for Your glory
With everything
With everything
We will shout forth Your praise

CHORUS 2:
Our hearts they cry
Be glorified
Be lifted high above all names
For You our King
With everything
We will shout forth Your praise

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